Sunday, October 30, 2011
heartbroken since 23.09.11
deardear, im starting to write my blog again from today. know what its a method my cosuin sis taught me n said it helps to relieve my feelings.i reli hope it helps because i hv been crying so much before i write.
i left ur hse ytd on 29.03.11 and i wrote u a letter earlier but u wil nvr see it.it's the 1st letter to u to tell u hw im feeling now.we hv been together since 17.02.08 n it has been 3 yrs 7 mths n 5 days in total.
i reli dun understand y did u leave me when i needed u the most.mayb u dun need me to be in ur life anymore.u cant imagine hw i feel when i see u so anxious of another girl n the thought of u having sex wif them is even unbearable.
saw wat u posted in ur fb juz nw 'the 1 i married is a past, the 1 i met there no future, the 1 i with is not my love, the 1 who leave love me most and the 1 i want we r not together ... but wat i really want? =.='''..i wana know m i the 'no future n love u most'? or juz the one who loves u the most.
but i wana let u know that,i reli love u soooo much even til nw.it has nt changed before n i dun tink it wil ever.u also posted a song link for song name 'what r words'.thr is 1 line singing 'i wil nvr leave when she needs me most' n i wana say i need u so much but stil u left me shattered n fallen down on the floor.cant stand up til nw.
i moved wif a heavy heart yesterday, so much of 'bu she de' n sadness cos it was once whr we hv our dreams but nw its all gone.u cant imagine hw hapi i was when u brought me out for movie the night before i move on Friday 28.09.11 n at tat time i reli wish time could stop forever but i know its impossible.
til nw i stil duno y u did wat u did,or the real reason is like wat u told me?u wana hv freedom n go after girls for flings n tat ur heart is no longer wif me.i reli feel the world is ugly nw w/o u wif me.each time i cry i hope u wil b thr for me but u r nt thr anymore *heartbroken*
blogged @ 7.38 p.m.
