Sunday, April 1, 2012
it's compLicated =(
oh my god~!! y m i alwiz landed in a complicated situation =(i m looking forward to a good new relationship but things has juz gotten complicated now. there is a guy named 光明 who has been trying to woo me n i've tried going out wif him. but i realised he reli diff ch wif me n i cant clik wif him but he stil treats me veri good. even bought me a bouquet of roses (12 staLks) ytd to confess his feelings to me.
i know that he is not da right one cos i dun feel any chemistry at all when im wif him. though i know it is veri bad but i hv tried to warn him so mani times n yet he juz refused to let go so actually thr's nothing much that i can do. i can only thank him for loving me n im sorry but i cant force myself~
then, my ex which was wif me 14 yrs ago contacted me bak recently.i met up wif him tinking tat its juz an old fren meet-up but i realised alot of memories flashed bak when i see him. we talked alot n it seems tat im confused now ~_~"
he said he has been tinking n tried looking for me which i felt reli suprised n sweet...he stil kept the thing i gave him 14 yrs ago *touched* its a mixed feelings now...i hv 3 suitors n 2 reli hv the potential (as in chemistry) so im super duper lost...i dun wana hurt anyone but how to make the right choice? duhzz...
blogged @ 09.34 a.m.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
bLogg!ng @ JB =D
第一次在自己的家（新山）写blog。。。哈哈，感觉好特撇哦~昨天去见了一位超过14年不见的朋友。也是中二时的男朋友。我很高兴，因为我们一点都不陌生。也希望，他的一切会越来越好。
今天是星期六，我不必做工但是睡到11点多就自然醒了-.-"
我又开始想念他了。真的很不喜欢这种感觉 =（
希望很快的可以和他见面。不知道，他是否有想起我？
朋友问我是否想和他在一起？我说想啊，但是我才不要主动开口。哈哈~
我想我已经准备好了，因为我已经把所有属于前男友的东西和回忆都丢掉了。
因为这样，我觉得好开心哦 =p 我已经准备好接受新的恋情了~
我想要和他说谢谢~！！因为这种感觉是在我认识他之后来的。。。
我只想开开心心的过每一天~^^
blogged @ 11.39 a.m.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
roLLercoasTer ~_~"
my cousin sis was telling me the other day that my life has been like roller coaster since Sep last yr til now...hahahaha~well i guess so cos if i tink bak, so mani things has hpnd n it feels like ytd o.o" stil feels like a dream but actually its not...its TRUE~~~
recently my sec sch ex added me in FB...he has been talking to me n trying to ask me out to meet when we both hv the time...i guess it shud b fine as we could stil b fren since wat hpnd bet. us was so so long ago (",)
on tues,when i was on da way to go for dinner wif Nelson, i met my pri sch best fren 'I-Ling'...i was reli overjoyed & i hope we both could meet up soon for some catch up hahaha =D
and another thing was tat,my fren smsed me to tell me that Thomas is attached now...i cant help but feeling so hapi for him ^^ i would like to wish him 'Hapi Birdday' cos itshis birdday today n i hope he has found da 1 he truly loves n hope that the person in my mind now is the right person for me too =(^.^)=
today i drag myself to work loh =( cos i know he is on leave this 2 days n duno y i juz feel abit sienzz haha =x
im looking forward to see him real soon n our next outing again~
looking back what has juz hpnd for the past 1 mth, its edi look like rollercoaster LoL~ may everything be well after this n gets better n better~~
blogged @ 09.31 p.m.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
说不出的快乐~^^
今天我和他第三次出去，我们去吃晚餐~ 不知这么，吃的真的很开心~和他在一起时觉得很舒服，因为我可以不必假装，可以做我自己。。。
很奇怪的，每天都会想要知道他吃得饱不饱，在做什么。。。哈哈~
和他聊天我自己都会傻傻的对电话笑 =x 但是说真的，我真的在享受这种感觉 ^.^
我很期待和他下次的约会~ 不管是做什么，只要有他陪着我~=p
我真的很想和我的好朋友分享我的快乐，让他为我感到开心。但我想他根本不在乎吧~
我只能希望他会和我说话，不要像现在对我不理不睬。我真的觉得好难受 =（
接下来的这几天，有可能不会见到他。。。不知道为什么，我觉得我已经开始想他了~ 哈哈~
blogged @ 09.58 p.m.
feeLing reLi hap! aft so Long~^^ 好久没有这么得开心了~
been feeling so dam hapi since saturday ^^ i hv not got this kind of happiness since long le...actually was stil emo-ing on fri cos my best gf in sg went out but nvr invite me n been cold towards me for more than a mth but now i found another reason to smile again =xi wish i could share this wif my bestie but she is stil ignoring me...though i hv reli tried veri hard to salvage our frenship but its of no use if she wana giv up on it but i stil wish her all da best in wadever she does~
i would like to express my heartfelt thanks to 1 of my salesperson n his wife for taking their precious time on last sat to let me n his cousin (Nelson) to meet...his cousin is actually my coll oso but i nvr get to know him cos we both r working in diff lvs n his cousin sometimes go out to do delivery...
din tink much but i tot dun wana waste his effort so i went to sing wif them...at 1st i was worried tat his cousin is a quiet person n it would b so awkward if we both dun tok the whole night LoL...but surprisingly, he is oso a frenly person hahaha =p
the singing session was good then we went to east coast for seafood n beach walk plus abit of drinking session til 2am+ ^^ i reli enjoyed the night...we met again for movie the next day at Bugis~
strangely thr is this special feeling i hv haha...we went to eat, pray, watch movie n lim teh which i duno y makes me cant slp at night LoL >_<"
i guess human feelings r reli 奇妙 cos thr is another guy woo-ing me but i nvr felt this way to him, its like totally no chemistry but wif Nelson, we juz clicked~!!
im reli looking forward to see n talk wif him again though he says im talkative -.-"
but i enjoy being myself when im wif him...it feels reli comfortable =D
~** 很开心，又找到了让我从心里开心的笑容。 **~
blogged @ 12.14 a.m.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
break da ice ~_~"
i feel so bad n unhapi since the incident last fri but today i feel much better =)i finally can slp well ltr, cos i finally managed to break da ice wif my best gf ^^
and tmr i'm going pulau ubin for a walk juz a half day tour LoL...hope its fun and the weather is ok (not to hot...pls dun rain) hahaha =D
gd nite everyone and hv a very gd weekend ahead...buaix zzzZZzzZzzZZZz
blogged @ 12.25 a.m.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
sorry i destroyed everything :'(
stopped blogging for few mths tinking that i wont hv to blog when im unhapi anymore...but it looks like im wrong :(even frens who r close wif me duno wat im tinking of...it can be quite devastated at times having problems n keeping it in ourselves...
the fact is tat i hv no more wrong tinking of him anymore n i reli juz wish to b veri gd fren wif him as well as the frens but well i guess i destroyed everything myself this time...sometimes when thing is over but stil hv to listen to all linking to him is reli irritating cos ppl juz dun blieve tat u dun feel tat way anymore :(
i duno y i did wat i did til now (due to overdrinking?illusion?or...?)...though i know i did wrong but i guess i was reli crazy then...i made everyone who cares disappointed n once again gave them the wrong idea tat im stil tinking of him...
i shud not hv done wat i shud not do (it clearly was a mistake)...n now i cant get the understanding fr anyone...i guess i muz hv surpressed myself for way too long...
however, i would like to apologize to all of them sincerely especially the few who reli cares...im reli sori tat things had to end up so ugly...but words hv been said n things had hpnd though i veri much wanted to rectify i guess its hard...
no way to face them fr now on...i guess i can only go bak to the life of being myself n having only myself again...but once again sori to all for the unhappiness caused n thanks for being thr when i needed the most...
blogged @ 04.06 p.m.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
29.11.11
deardear,been so mani days nvr write to u i tot i reli let go of u, let go of everything..but now im crying while writing this post :(
know wat i reli hate myself for being so weak~!!how i wish i could forget this part memory of u but i juz cant erase it..i ask myself y n i cant find da answer..
reli hv alot to say but duno how to start or whr to begin..no matter wat other guys say to me or how they flirt wif me..u wil alwiz b thr deep inside my heart~
i guess i oni wan to know the truth of y u did wat u did..but i guess i wil nvr know, cos u wil nvr say n u wil b the oni 1 to know x/3
blogged @ 08.58 p.m.
